I am learning to let go of the need for things to happen immediately. Although I've heard the phrase"it's not where you end up, it's the journey"- I am finding the journey tedious these days. Over the last 12 months, I've pushed myself on every level to accomplish my dreams. I believe that true beauty, strength and understanding can be found in great food, stories and art. They are an important part of the human experience, and I hope to make those experiences accessible through my work and the way I live my life. I have learned to ask for help and advice from peers, mentors, and professionals who have successfully created a career for themselves... Strangely enough, everyone I've spoken with has the same response: Sounds like you're on the right track and I'm excited to see what you do next!
At first, I figured this response was a polite way of brushing me off. But after 12 similar responses I've decided they believe I am doing everything I should be. I've done just about all I can. I've neglected blogging, friends, family, dating and myself for a job that doesn't exist yet.
Just about any college graduate can tell you the job market is a frightening and frustrating place, filled with "false starts". Over the past year, I have had so many "false starts"- getting to the second round of interviews, but not getting the job I wanted. I've received generous offers for full-time social media content positions, only to realize they don't allow me to create content that I am passionate about- food, culture, and the arts.
The "false starts" have taught me that my passions and interests are more of a lifestyle-the career is incidental. Although I have always struggled with doubts that my work may not be "good enough," I have resolved to overcome this by publishing my work more than ever before. I have to do what frightens me until the activity becomes routine. I am trying to release expectations and enjoy where the journey is taking me at this moment.
I need a true start. In the meantime, I will be making some cookies and writing new stories.